need to get this out of me

have you ever tried so hard to sort something out until you start to feel like everything is your fault. well thats how i’m starting to feel right now. since my son was 2 years old i no-test something was just not right about him. his development has always been behind (walking,talking,sitting up,potty) but everytime i tried to get help no-one gave a shit..untill he hit 3 years old and the health woman started to no-test stuff and got the ball rolling.

since then he has had help with his talking until they blanked liam for 6months and i had to teach him (they forgot) but soon after a lady came to my flat and said sorry for the wait she was shocked that liam was talking. he’s post to be getting one2one help with talking at school but i do not no when?

liam has probs with anger and will hit out. i have been saying this since he was 2 but like i was told ALL CHILDREN DO THIS. i know for a fact not all children do this and that something was not right. pre-school got to a point they was finding him hard but they would tell me this but tell doctors and health people different. school has told me that liam keeps hitting children and they have to give him time out. ive been told they are going to be making a smiley face bored for liam but why do i think this is not going to work. they have also no-test that he does not like making eye contact with people but i new this. the children at school are telling there family’s about my son and people have started to give me looks when i’m with him. i feel like shouting DO YOU WANT A PHOTO.

before people start saying stuff about me thinking i don’t do crap when hes being bad…when liam is being a pain or even hurts people i ban him from watching tv and i take away his favorite books and cars and tell him what he has done wrong . i’m trying so hard but i feel like i’m failing on his anger. i’m so scared that hes not going to have any friends because of this and that makes me want to cry…