last night was kind of hard for me. mostly on a Wednesday night i jump onto a bus and head up to see someone but last night i could not do that. i was kind of hoping he would be a man and pop up and say his side to my face but nope…i was home alone so ended up in bed by 8pm.
soon as i went to my mothers after work to pick my son’s night stuff up she asked me if I’ve had a phone call or a visit but sadly nope and i don’t think i will sadly. i kind of feel like a used teddy what someone got bored of :(.
don’t it just suck when you feel like you did a dumb thing and you have let people down because of it…yer thats me today because i feel like i let my best mate down.
last night was so odd for me. i was on facebook and looking at the chat and i just kept thinking that a name was gonna pop up but nope because he was blocked (well not anymore). it sucks when you have been talking to someone for along time and then they are gone.
yep im single again but not gonna say online why because i’m nice but will say i do not want to see his face again . that was the first time i was dumped for a stupid reason and being told they don’t want to wake up at 5am (>_<). 2months of happiness just gone with the click of a keybored on a phone and i feel used, a fool and a joke. thank god he never got to meet my boy who wanted to meet him.
just feel so pissed off right now its crazy.
a little boy called me the bad lady for trying to run him over with the the brush lol. hmm lets change that he tried to get hit by it but i went around. his mum said sorry but i said its ok i have a 5year old lol.
made the security guy laugh. i was walking around with a mop and he says don’t go hitting people with that and i said don’t worry i’m having a good day lol.
around 7:50pm the fire alarm went off and no-one knows why.
so fun night :D.
its just been one big mess.
i have learned in my life to sometimes its best to just shut up and don’t tell people how you really feel but sadly sometimes keeping stuff in can make you ill so today i told someone what was on my mind and wow nearly everyone knows my business and i think i might of upset someone. next time i will just tell a wall how i’m feeling.
liam has had a bad day at school. he’s been bullying people and had a light switch moment when one min hes fine next mine he’s hurting people. when we was walking home from school a family was going crazy because there child had a black eye. i was dragging liam by the hand because i could only think has liam done that. soon as we got home i went into his room and took out his tv and told him he’s banned from playing any ps4 games till he can show me he can be good.
i don’t no what is up with me but i’ve started to feel very lonely again to a point sometimes i will just sit at home by myself and cry. liam is back at school so i have no-one to talk to and on top of that liam keeps bugging me now at weekends that he wants to be home with me but sadly i work weekends (for now). on top of that i’m now only seeing my fella once a week because of reasons that i can’t say.
i’m thinking about getting a pet so i won’t be lonely as much.. but sadly can’t have a cat because they make me ill and can’t have a dog yet because of liam being young. hmmmm maybe a rabbit or something….when i ask liam he just says mum i want a chicken (O_O).