went to pick my son up from school to see that my boy has a lovely black eye. I asked him who did this to you but he didn’t say so I asked his teacher. she says someone bumped into him and in the report its been put down as a small bump.. when I was walking home I asked a parent to have a look at it and even they said liam has been punched.
off to see the office tomorrow.
i have been wanted to write about this for abit but have been putting it off because I’m abit embarrassed to talk about it BUT I just do not know what to do about it anymore.
for about 3weeks now my son keeps pooing himself. I think he’s doing it attention because he does it when I’m on the loo, bath when he’s gone to bed, on the phone, watching YouTube on laptop when he’s on the xbox and he has done it walking home from school. tonight I sat him down and I asked him why he keeps doing this but he won’t tell me…its got to a point now that I have told him if he does not stop this I might not take him to comic con and that did hit him. he’s been having probs at school this week so he is banned from playing his games… thinking about going to the doctors but I don’t think they will even help.
its about to hit 8pm and seeing that I’ve been up since 4am i’m not sleepy. my sleep pattern has gone and i do not know how to get it back… if i go to bed at 10pm i will be up at 5am and buzzing (O_O). trying to book a week off work to try and sort it out because i do not know if its just my head or is it stress.
why is it when you try very hard at stuff but there is always gonna be people who tell you your failing. i’m doing something on my own and also some of this stuff is new to me and trying very hard but starting to feel like a fail.
that was my night tonight.
well after a hard long think and a chat with family… i’m gonna be taking a break from facebook and i’ve got to start thinking about who i call friends but don’t worry still be blogging .
on Tuesday night i had some drama again but this time it ended up with me in tears and I started to feel very low and at breaking point. i think people by now will click on that i have not been well and i’m kind of sick of telling people that i’m fine. my stress levels are high, i can’t sleep, tummy probs,low days, nightmares and on top of that my hair is falling out and going abit grey. it’s also not been the best year for me with the family dog passing, work, money, ex’s, friends aka drama. i badly need to sort out my head and fix up my health and on top of that Santa is coming and i want to be happy not feeling ill.
i’m gonna have a month off facebook but could be longer if needed.
I do not understand but this morning when i woke up i just felt crappy. i didn’t want to get out of bed so i had to make myself because of liam. we was post to go to town but i was not in the mood but did get some shopping done from the local shop. I’ve just been sat at home watching you tube , ps4 and Disney films. Its now 20:44pm and I’m sat watching horror films and feeling abit happy but because liam has gone to bed i have no-one to talk to :(.
does anyone else have days like this???
i think i’ve done a blog like this in the past but i can’t remember but i’m really thinking about deleting facebook for good. last night i was trying to take off nearly all the photos of me and family and put them onto my laptop but clicked on that i badly need a memory stick (got to wait till friday).
in the past it used to be a site i would look forward to going on and talking to people but sadly nearly everyone i used to be friends with turned out to be plebs or just stopped talking to me or drama. every time i log onto it now it’s only to play games and family sending me messages or all the old people who have seen me grow up want to see photos of liam.
i deleted fb off my phone 2weeks ago because i got so sick to death of turning my internet on and messages just popping up what where just stressing and upsetting me. when i log onto the site by my laptop i still get that feeling of OH PLEASE NO CRAP TODAY. also its the only site i know when you block someone it start’s a keys unblock that person war and then i have to unblock that person and see there site what i do not want to see because it upsets me.
i might try and have a week away from it starting next week and then delete it so it gives me time to get all the photos and give people a heads up whats gonna happen. i no some people are gonna be peed but i feel like this will make me feel better if i do it.