its funny how i used to write on here alot and now its like when i have time to write on here lol. also it’s been the school week off so i have been trying to keep liam busy.
i do not know if i put anything about this on the blog but on thursday i finally reported the neighbors downstairs. the old lady has not been there since the middle of august 2017. she came up to me with her son to tell me she can hear my kitten running about and i said no way you can hear my cat because i just had to get her a bell because i can’t bloody hear her. starting at the end of august her son’s started to stay there and thats when the fun started. everytime my son walks about they start to bang on my roof and its always between 3:30pm to 6pm. they also started to move stuff about at 11pm when i was in bed. this went on for 2weeks until one day i had 4hours of sleep and liam had been home for 2hours and they where banging so I shouted STOP BANGING ON MY BLOODY WALL. HE IS 6 YEARS OLD AND I CAN’T F**KING TAPE HIM TO THE CHAIR BECAUSE YOU DON’T LIKE HIM MOVING. IF YOU HAVE A PROB COME TO MY DOOR AND STOP BANGING ON MY F**KING ROOF. after i said that the banging stopped for 2weeks until the beginning of this month when it started again but i just blanked them out and thought go report me because im moving about between 3pm and 6pm.
but one day i was sat at home around 10am when i started to hear a tapping sound. i didn’t think much of it until i started to watch the cat. they was tapping my roof but not on one spot but i just turned the tv up and they stopped and that went on for 2 weeks tap tap tap and yelling ARRRR . one saturday i was just chilling with liam and at 11am i started to hear music and no joke they must of had there speakers on my staircase and i thought ok i’m going to see them because i’m sick of this crap but before i was about to leave the flat the music stopped and looked like someone beat me to it. it even happened last thursday when i came home from working morning so i went and put on mtv bass and they soon turned their crap down and i went to bed.
this week has been the school holidays so i have moved the games into my bedroom so i can have the tv. on tuesday morning at 7am i was woken up to a big bang sound. this sound happened 3 more times and it was downstairs banging on my bedroom roof. i made up my mind that i was gonna report them but i needed to see someone face to face but on wednesday that’s when i had it. i came home from work at 10pm and went to bed and the only thing i could hear on full was bbc news under my bedroom and this went onto 4am.
i went to see housing and reported it and found out that no one has reported me for anything and that the guys downstairs are post to not be there because the flat is under the mother’s name not theirs. a letter will be sent out to them and let’s see if they stop. but sadly the letter won’t be going to the guys because it be going to the mother.
went to pick my son up from school to see that my boy has a lovely black eye. I asked him who did this to you but he didn’t say so I asked his teacher. she says someone bumped into him and in the report its been put down as a small bump.. when I was walking home I asked a parent to have a look at it and even they said liam has been punched.
off to see the office tomorrow.
i have been wanted to write about this for abit but have been putting it off because I’m abit embarrassed to talk about it BUT I just do not know what to do about it anymore.
for about 3weeks now my son keeps pooing himself. I think he’s doing it attention because he does it when I’m on the loo, bath when he’s gone to bed, on the phone, watching YouTube on laptop when he’s on the xbox and he has done it walking home from school. tonight I sat him down and I asked him why he keeps doing this but he won’t tell me…its got to a point now that I have told him if he does not stop this I might not take him to comic con and that did hit him. he’s been having probs at school this week so he is banned from playing his games… thinking about going to the doctors but I don’t think they will even help.
its about to hit 8pm and seeing that I’ve been up since 4am i’m not sleepy. my sleep pattern has gone and i do not know how to get it back… if i go to bed at 10pm i will be up at 5am and buzzing (O_O). trying to book a week off work to try and sort it out because i do not know if its just my head or is it stress.
why is it when you try very hard at stuff but there is always gonna be people who tell you your failing. i’m doing something on my own and also some of this stuff is new to me and trying very hard but starting to feel like a fail.
that was my night tonight.
well after a hard long think and a chat with family… i’m gonna be taking a break from facebook and i’ve got to start thinking about who i call friends but don’t worry still be blogging .
on Tuesday night i had some drama again but this time it ended up with me in tears and I started to feel very low and at breaking point. i think people by now will click on that i have not been well and i’m kind of sick of telling people that i’m fine. my stress levels are high, i can’t sleep, tummy probs,low days, nightmares and on top of that my hair is falling out and going abit grey. it’s also not been the best year for me with the family dog passing, work, money, ex’s, friends aka drama. i badly need to sort out my head and fix up my health and on top of that Santa is coming and i want to be happy not feeling ill.
i’m gonna have a month off facebook but could be longer if needed.
I do not understand but this morning when i woke up i just felt crappy. i didn’t want to get out of bed so i had to make myself because of liam. we was post to go to town but i was not in the mood but did get some shopping done from the local shop. I’ve just been sat at home watching you tube , ps4 and Disney films. Its now 20:44pm and I’m sat watching horror films and feeling abit happy but because liam has gone to bed i have no-one to talk to :(.
does anyone else have days like this???