update – what has been going on and how I’m feeling

This week has been crap and I just want to get some stuff off my chest about what has gone down.

fraud

1) On Tuesday the 26th feb around 7:30pm I was on my online banking trying to working out bills when I notice that £20 had gone missing. First thing that popped into my head was arrrr Liam but when I clicked the link and it was not Xbox but some website. I copied the link to see what the website was and nope it didn’t work. I went back onto my banking about now £30 had been taken out. I clicked on what was going on and blocked my card fast.

2) The next day I contacted the bank and got everything sorted (got my lost money back yesterday) but this was not the last of it. Around 11am I got a phone call asking for Liam (my 8 year old). I asked the male why but he said he was not aloud to tell me and he needed to talk to Liam. So, I said can you please tell me why you want to talk to my 8-year-old and how did you get my number. The guy put the phone down on me and when I rang back up it was a voice message saying I needed to fill some paper work. The number has been reported but after reporting it I found out that someone has been trying to apply for payday loans in my and Liam name and they used my address, number and to be smart my email but thank god they don’t have my password to log onto my email. The sad thing about this is it must be someone I know who has done this because not a lot of people have my number and my address oh AND MY EMAIL.

My Mental Health

Not alot of people will know that i have had Depression and other problems for around 8 years BUT  I have not been feeling to good in myself for about 5 month now and I have been trying very hard to just handle it myself but this week I had 2 panic attacks.

  • On Wednesday night when I got home from work..for some stupid reason I thought someone was in my house and I started to freak out.
  • Thursday I was crying for no reason at work and sadly someone said something that day and boom.

After having a long chat with my fella I made my mind up I needed to go see a doctor. I’ve been put back onto fluoxetine and I have to go back in a month to see if the pills are working.

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hello again

well this feels very odd to be writing a blog. i think it has been a month since i put up a post about how i was feeling and i think it be good to just say that i am feeling fine and keeping to myself. i even went out on halloween (night clubbing). i do keep having thoughts that something bad is gonna happen to me everytime i’m not home but i’m working on trying to not worry about stuff like that.

the only prob i have been having is that i keep going dizzy to a point i had to take a sick day on thursday because i just felt like i was just gonna fall over. i went to work yesterday but had chest pain so took everything slowly so i won’t be sick on anything lol. i’m gonna try and book to see a doctor on monday to see what is going on because this also happened to me 2week ago.

oh and i did find out some news yesterday about a ex friend of mine trying to help someone who made my life very uncomfortable so i went and blocked them.

omg what a morning

well we had a fun morning. I got a email from paypal saying something had come out but me being me i thought oh it be a bill.  I went to see what liam was playing and it was fortnight. I notice he had alot of vbucks and i asked how he got them and he said he won them. something sounded odd so i went to look at my paypal and liam had spent £80 on the bloody game. I was not happy and there was alot of me yelling because this money was to pay off my tax on the 28th and also how did he get into my paypal. After chilling down i had a long chat with liam about what he had done wrong he just could not understand so I explained to liam how would you like it if you was saving money for roblox and mummy went a spent it…he got very upset and said sorry but like i said don’t cry over spilt milk because it just means mummy has to use her credit card (not something i wanted to do). I asked liam to show me how he did it and after he showed me i clicked on what had happened. I thought liam had worked out my password for paypal but nope when i payed for liam Fortnite stuff on payday the xbox saved my card details without me knowing.

everything is fixed and next time i will just pay by paypal not by my card…new day tomorrow.

be careful

on a thursday night i got a odd house phone call at 7:30pm. now the reason why it was odd is because only family,school and nhs have this number. i picked up and it was a voice call saying the company name and press one to talk. i hung up but went online to see who they was. it was a bloody debt company. i was like wtf who do i owe money to.

next day i rang up this debt company. the guy down the phone asked me for a ref number what is on my letter. i said i do not have a letter you guys rang me up last night on my house phone and i need to know what’s going on. theyguy asked for my house phone number (Not my postcode) and i said sorry i can’t remember but i gave him my mobile number. he said he could not find that number. i said hang on you just said i should of got a letter so that means you have my address. he asked for my postcode and nope i’m not even on there computer.

i asked the why did you ring me if i’m not even on your computer files. he asked me to ring back soon as i find out my house phone number and i asked why because i’m not even on your bloody computer and how did they get my number because everyone has my mobile. he said if i get a letter to ring them right away 0.o. i said hmmmm that would be fun with no address oh and if i get a letter i’m going to the police….

i have had no calls or letter.

what a pleb

sometimes i wonder what people do in there life’s if they think its ok to try and pretend to not know you and be someone else (o.0).

when your a blogger with alot of sexy people who follow you sometimes you will get comments on old blogs from the passed. last week i got a comment what i didn’t find odd but after getting the 2nd one i thought hmmm something just does not add up. so at first i logged onto my blog by phone but after clicking on that i was not gonna find the info i wanted i had to log onto the old lappy. i logged into the edit comment part of wordpress and notice i had alot of pending comments (sorry lol) but after finding what i needed (email and IP) i was right to be suspicious. the person who was pretending to not know me was my ex (from 2016) what deleted me off facebook 2week ago. i have to admit i was abit peed off at first but then i just could not stop laughing because if your gonna stalk someone WHY USE YOUR OWN EMAIL AND IP FOOL. after getting myself back to normal i left a comment and since then i have not had a reply and also blocked his ass on facebook.

if you ever feel like something is not right about a comment or a follower please go have a look at the email and block them…i have blogged for a very long time and also have done a online course on wordpress so i do try and keep up to date on comment and followers blogs…. even if i had to some pending messages lol (3 only lol) and spam.

got to love crazy people

well do you remember i did a blog about my lovely neighbors fighting in the car park. i was at work cleaning the petrol station at 6:30am when i saw one of the neighbors (red van) pull up to a pump. i didn’t think much of it to tell you the truth and i just kept litter picking. i heard someone shout HEY CLEANER. i turned around and the guy calls me a C**T and sticks up his middle fingers at me (o_0) and said some other stuff that i did not understand. i didn’t say nothing and just kept on going on with the job feeling abit wtf just happened lol.

it all because  i saw him about to rip of his car bumper. i told him to not do it.. well he did not take it well and kicked off with with me, gave me abuse and to watch my back and other crap. just gonna not talk to the guy and blank him out and lets see if he stops…if not gonna go and report him.

its funny how people change. one min this guy is cutting my grass and being cool with me and next min he’s calling me a c”t lol.