i think people might of notice that i have not been blogging alot lately and that i have been keeping to myself. well alot of stuff has been going on in my life that sadly i can’t say online or i could get into alot of crap,
but i can say that since this crap has happened i have been having probs with my anxiety and been feeling low again. i have notice that…
- i have been eating alot of junk and i know this sounds silly but i try to stop but i can’t.
- i’m emotional and one min i’m happy as pie but next i’m crying and sad but i don’t understand why.
- i’ve been having nightmares and because of this i’m having about 4 to 5hour of sleep.
- i’m started to block people away from me because i feel like everyone is talking crap about me. i’m only talking to family and boyfriend.
- i only leave my home when i need to BUT i am going out around town at some point because my fella thinks it be good for me to see friends.
- everytime i go outside anywhere i feel like i’m gonna walk into people i really don’t want to see (reason why i like being at home).
- sometimes i get very stressed till a point i’m making myself ill with worry and stress.
right now i just want to sort myself out and don’t worry i will be blogging again.
sometimes i wonder what people do in there life’s if they think its ok to try and pretend to not know you and be someone else (o.0).
when your a blogger with alot of sexy people who follow you sometimes you will get comments on old blogs from the passed. last week i got a comment what i didn’t find odd but after getting the 2nd one i thought hmmm something just does not add up. so at first i logged onto my blog by phone but after clicking on that i was not gonna find the info i wanted i had to log onto the old lappy. i logged into the edit comment part of wordpress and notice i had alot of pending comments (sorry lol) but after finding what i needed (email and IP) i was right to be suspicious. the person who was pretending to not know me was my ex (from 2016) what deleted me off facebook 2week ago. i have to admit i was abit peed off at first but then i just could not stop laughing because if your gonna stalk someone WHY USE YOUR OWN EMAIL AND IP FOOL. after getting myself back to normal i left a comment and since then i have not had a reply and also blocked his ass on facebook.
if you ever feel like something is not right about a comment or a follower please go have a look at the email and block them…i have blogged for a very long time and also have done a online course on wordpress so i do try and keep up to date on comment and followers blogs…. even if i had to some pending messages lol (3 only lol) and spam.
sorry for not blogging a lot this week. a lot has gone on and for legal reasons I can’t say until it its fixed (long story).
but I can talk about a odd thing what happened last week. someone sent me a letter signed to keys. when I opened it and saw the name I soon put the letter into the bin.
also found out liam is pooping himself for attention. he did it tonight so he is now banned from games until this dirty protest has stopped. its now been going on for a month.
like always i’m sorry for not blogging alot but nothing has been going on this week.
liam is doing fine and back to being himself. he’s seeing someone about his feet this month so gonna tell them he ended up in hospital because of his feet. i also got a letter this week for him to see a occupational therapist in April.
well after a hard long think and a chat with family… i’m gonna be taking a break from facebook and i’ve got to start thinking about who i call friends but don’t worry still be blogging .
on Tuesday night i had some drama again but this time it ended up with me in tears and I started to feel very low and at breaking point. i think people by now will click on that i have not been well and i’m kind of sick of telling people that i’m fine. my stress levels are high, i can’t sleep, tummy probs,low days, nightmares and on top of that my hair is falling out and going abit grey. it’s also not been the best year for me with the family dog passing, work, money, ex’s, friends aka drama. i badly need to sort out my head and fix up my health and on top of that Santa is coming and i want to be happy not feeling ill.
i’m gonna have a month off facebook but could be longer if needed.
i think i’ve done a blog like this in the past but i can’t remember but i’m really thinking about deleting facebook for good. last night i was trying to take off nearly all the photos of me and family and put them onto my laptop but clicked on that i badly need a memory stick (got to wait till friday).
in the past it used to be a site i would look forward to going on and talking to people but sadly nearly everyone i used to be friends with turned out to be plebs or just stopped talking to me or drama. every time i log onto it now it’s only to play games and family sending me messages or all the old people who have seen me grow up want to see photos of liam.
i deleted fb off my phone 2weeks ago because i got so sick to death of turning my internet on and messages just popping up what where just stressing and upsetting me. when i log onto the site by my laptop i still get that feeling of OH PLEASE NO CRAP TODAY. also its the only site i know when you block someone it start’s a keys unblock that person war and then i have to unblock that person and see there site what i do not want to see because it upsets me.
i might try and have a week away from it starting next week and then delete it so it gives me time to get all the photos and give people a heads up whats gonna happen. i no some people are gonna be peed but i feel like this will make me feel better if i do it.
why has this year been so hard for me. sometimes i wish i could just start the year all over again and change some stuff and make the year a hell of alot better.
i have to admit that I’ve learned stuff about myself.
1) I’m a blonde Muppet but also a adult,
2) how to say no and tell people how i feel,
3) me and relationships are a big NOOOOOOOOOOO,
4) life is hard because i make it that way.
5) still don’t like people lol .
can’t wait for 2017…i can start a new life.