I just spent maybe a hour in tears. I don’t want to tell people why but sometimes i feel like why the hell do i try my best. This year has been a hard one and i kind of want it to just end. My birthday is on the 15th and i just want it to pass (working on that day).
feel sick as a dog….
got a free takeaway last night all because the owner likes me alot.
lol i still go it.
well that was a fun 30min of my life lol. It was 1am and I thought hmmm I better go lock the living room window. But when I went to do that I forgot my credit card was on the candle pot and yep my card went out the window and into my downstairs bush (i’m on first floor). So I went and PUT on my dressing gown (and shoes lol) and went outside to see if I could find it and nope. After looking like someone up to no good I went back in and canceled the card.
When I told my boyfriend about what I had done he could only laugh and say…So you dropped your money into your nextdoors bush. Also because its 1am I can’t go banging on there door and say hey can i go have a look in your bush lol.
Sorry for not blogging alot. As you can tell from my last blog my grandad passed away and i’ve not been in the blogging mood.
yesterday i spent the day with my mom and dad oh and little sod. I was not really in the easter mood but was happy just to be with my family enjoying the sun.
i’ve also booked tickets to see DanTDM in Manchester. If you don’t know who he is go google. lol he’s my son hero and Liam is so happy to go see him live.
My course work is going ok but i have to admit i’m kind of behind but that’s only because of what’s going on in my life. i’m wanting to get the assessment 5 out the way soon and start 6.
well it has been a long time since i used this site. Alot has been going on in my life its crazy.
1st i want to say that i’m feeling alot better. the only prob that i have right now is i’m having nasty dreams what are making me not want to sleep. i have learned i sleep better with the tv on. i’m still on fluoxetine.
2nd work – have you ever upset someone but don’t have a clue what you have done…yep that is me.
3rd school – the UK department of education have said nope to get liam into a new school that can help him with his needs. so i’m now waiting for a letter for i can appeal for the 3rd time and school have to pay £400 to get someone out again to assess liam AGAIN. i have already made up my mind that liam is NOT going to high school because there is no way he will handle it so it looks like i’m gonna have to home school him.
4rd my grandad is not well…
This week has been crap and I just want to get some stuff off my chest about what has gone down.
1) On Tuesday the 26th feb around 7:30pm I was on my online banking trying to working out bills when I notice that £20 had gone missing. First thing that popped into my head was arrrr Liam but when I clicked the link and it was not Xbox but some website. I copied the link to see what the website was and nope it didn’t work. I went back onto my banking about now £30 had been taken out. I clicked on what was going on and blocked my card fast.
2) The next day I contacted the bank and got everything sorted (got my lost money back yesterday) but this was not the last of it. Around 11am I got a phone call asking for Liam (my 8 year old). I asked the male why but he said he was not aloud to tell me and he needed to talk to Liam. So, I said can you please tell me why you want to talk to my 8-year-old and how did you get my number. The guy put the phone down on me and when I rang back up it was a voice message saying I needed to fill some paper work. The number has been reported but after reporting it I found out that someone has been trying to apply for payday loans in my and Liam name and they used my address, number and to be smart my email but thank god they don’t have my password to log onto my email. The sad thing about this is it must be someone I know who has done this because not a lot of people have my number and my address oh AND MY EMAIL.
My Mental Health
Not alot of people will know that i have had Depression and other problems for around 8 years BUT I have not been feeling to good in myself for about 5 month now and I have been trying very hard to just handle it myself but this week I had 2 panic attacks.
- On Wednesday night when I got home from work..for some stupid reason I thought someone was in my house and I started to freak out.
- Thursday I was crying for no reason at work and sadly someone said something that day and boom.
After having a long chat with my fella I made my mind up I needed to go see a doctor. I’ve been put back onto fluoxetine and I have to go back in a month to see if the pills are working.
Whoop started my week off today and what a time to book it…ON A BLOODY SCHOOL HOLIDAY WEEK lol. When I booked it I didn’t look into the school holiday times.
It’s been a fun week. Liam broke his shoes on Monday and thought hey I can’t go to school with broken shoes but he was shocked when I put him into his pumps and told him he can wear them to school. OH and i forgot to tell you that me and LIAM are gonna be doing a midnight 6mile walk for Kirkwood Hospice. If you want to support https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/liamprice2010
work – Been busy at work.
My course work is going well and I’m learning a lot but I’m also taking my time because I do find it hard to sit down for a long time and I have to read something like 5times to get it into my head. I’m just waiting for some books to show up to help me a little bit. But I am nearly done doing my first assessment.