well it has been a long time since i used this site. Alot has been going on in my life its crazy.
1st i want to say that i’m feeling alot better. the only prob that i have right now is i’m having nasty dreams what are making me not want to sleep. i have learned i sleep better with the tv on. i’m still on fluoxetine.
2nd work – have you ever upset someone but don’t have a clue what you have done…yep that is me.
3rd school – the UK department of education have said nope to get liam into a new school that can help him with his needs. so i’m now waiting for a letter for i can appeal for the 3rd time and school have to pay £400 to get someone out again to assess liam AGAIN. i have already made up my mind that liam is NOT going to high school because there is no way he will handle it so it looks like i’m gonna have to home school him.
4rd my grandad is not well…
This week has been crap and I just want to get some stuff off my chest about what has gone down.
1) On Tuesday the 26th feb around 7:30pm I was on my online banking trying to working out bills when I notice that £20 had gone missing. First thing that popped into my head was arrrr Liam but when I clicked the link and it was not Xbox but some website. I copied the link to see what the website was and nope it didn’t work. I went back onto my banking about now £30 had been taken out. I clicked on what was going on and blocked my card fast.
2) The next day I contacted the bank and got everything sorted (got my lost money back yesterday) but this was not the last of it. Around 11am I got a phone call asking for Liam (my 8 year old). I asked the male why but he said he was not aloud to tell me and he needed to talk to Liam. So, I said can you please tell me why you want to talk to my 8-year-old and how did you get my number. The guy put the phone down on me and when I rang back up it was a voice message saying I needed to fill some paper work. The number has been reported but after reporting it I found out that someone has been trying to apply for payday loans in my and Liam name and they used my address, number and to be smart my email but thank god they don’t have my password to log onto my email. The sad thing about this is it must be someone I know who has done this because not a lot of people have my number and my address oh AND MY EMAIL.
My Mental Health
Not alot of people will know that i have had Depression and other problems for around 8 years BUT I have not been feeling to good in myself for about 5 month now and I have been trying very hard to just handle it myself but this week I had 2 panic attacks.
- On Wednesday night when I got home from work..for some stupid reason I thought someone was in my house and I started to freak out.
- Thursday I was crying for no reason at work and sadly someone said something that day and boom.
After having a long chat with my fella I made my mind up I needed to go see a doctor. I’ve been put back onto fluoxetine and I have to go back in a month to see if the pills are working.
Whoop started my week off today and what a time to book it…ON A BLOODY SCHOOL HOLIDAY WEEK lol. When I booked it I didn’t look into the school holiday times.
It’s been a fun week. Liam broke his shoes on Monday and thought hey I can’t go to school with broken shoes but he was shocked when I put him into his pumps and told him he can wear them to school. OH and i forgot to tell you that me and LIAM are gonna be doing a midnight 6mile walk for Kirkwood Hospice. If you want to support https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/liamprice2010
work – Been busy at work.
My course work is going well and I’m learning a lot but I’m also taking my time because I do find it hard to sit down for a long time and I have to read something like 5times to get it into my head. I’m just waiting for some books to show up to help me a little bit. But I am nearly done doing my first assessment.
well it has been my week off and wow it’s been lovely to just chill and not stress over stuff.
I got paid yesterday and ended up buying a new bed. I have been putting it off for a very long time but on thursday night I was laying next to my fella when I said his side of the bed was dipping but after a long chat i found out it was my side not his what was sinking to the floor (its a old divan). So on friday i had to buy a new bed or I be sleeping on the floor and also my back is always in pain. The first shop we went to was the British Heart Foundation and wow there beds looked like poop. I ended up making my mind that I wanted to new bed and just pay it off monthly because my dad always says it’s better to buy something new. So we went to Bensons For Beds and wow the bed what i have been looked at for months online…long story short my new bed is coming on the 6/3/19 🙂 (victoria lavender crush).
Do you ever remember a old story being told to you when you was a child but you thought naaa it’s just a lie. On 24th december i went to see my grandparents and they mentioned there old house they used to live in (Skegness-Friskney). I remembered this thing they told me and other family members about what happened to that house in the war.
There was a story that a old ww2 plane crashed into the house and parts went everywhere sometime in the 1940s and that the guy flying the plane died.
Where they lived was a old farm house with a very big garden…Soooooo big they had a caravan in it and a play area for us grandkids. But there was only one part we was not aloud to go near and that was the very big orchard and if we did go in there without a adult we would get a good telling off about it. We was only aloud in the orchard to pick apples with my nan but i remember the grass being long and the ground being very bumpy. I was told a story that there were still plane parts on the ground so me being a dumb 7 year old i thought it was plane parts every time i felt a bump.
Well today i found out the truth about what happened. It happened on the 3-4th March 1945, It was a Halifax Mark111 bomber , The team he was with was attacked, 7 crew but 4 lived (someone says), PILOT – P/O A.E. SCHRANK died. The plane crashed and demolished a farm house, Mother and daughter died but father lived. https://www.bbc.co.uk/history/ww2peopleswar/stories/44/a3263744.shtml
i wonder if the old house used to be in the orchard? but i can always remember spending my 6 week holiday at that house and every night i had to sleep with the bedroom door open and sleep with my sister or cousin in the room because i felt like someone was watching me and i used to hear footsteps at night when everyone was in bed.