well we had a fun morning. I got a email from paypal saying something had come out but me being me i thought oh it be a bill. I went to see what liam was playing and it was fortnight. I notice he had alot of vbucks and i asked how he got them and he said he won them. something sounded odd so i went to look at my paypal and liam had spent £80 on the bloody game. I was not happy and there was alot of me yelling because this money was to pay off my tax on the 28th and also how did he get into my paypal. After chilling down i had a long chat with liam about what he had done wrong he just could not understand so I explained to liam how would you like it if you was saving money for roblox and mummy went a spent it…he got very upset and said sorry but like i said don’t cry over spilt milk because it just means mummy has to use her credit card (not something i wanted to do). I asked liam to show me how he did it and after he showed me i clicked on what had happened. I thought liam had worked out my password for paypal but nope when i payed for liam Fortnite stuff on payday the xbox saved my card details without me knowing.
everything is fixed and next time i will just pay by paypal not by my card…new day tomorrow.
today i have just been cleaning up my home to keep my mind off stuff and building stuff on minecraft for my son.
today is my 29th birthday and no joke i only got 3 cards this year (my nan and grandad, mum and dad, sister and her fella). mostly i get more then that but nope it looks like people forgot. on top of that no-one has come round to see me today and the only people who rang to say happy birthday was my mum and dad.
kind of want to go to bed now 😦
why is it when you try very hard at stuff but there is always gonna be people who tell you your failing. i’m doing something on my own and also some of this stuff is new to me and trying very hard but starting to feel like a fail.
that was my night tonight.
well after a hard long think and a chat with family… i’m gonna be taking a break from facebook and i’ve got to start thinking about who i call friends but don’t worry still be blogging .
on Tuesday night i had some drama again but this time it ended up with me in tears and I started to feel very low and at breaking point. i think people by now will click on that i have not been well and i’m kind of sick of telling people that i’m fine. my stress levels are high, i can’t sleep, tummy probs,low days, nightmares and on top of that my hair is falling out and going abit grey. it’s also not been the best year for me with the family dog passing, work, money, ex’s, friends aka drama. i badly need to sort out my head and fix up my health and on top of that Santa is coming and i want to be happy not feeling ill.
i’m gonna have a month off facebook but could be longer if needed.
woke up at 4am and started to plan out my day. i had my morning coffee and started to get ready for work but soon as i got to work everything just went wrong. the hoover thought it be a good idea to not work so i had to bush the mat’s , floor needed a bush what was a mess but was asked why i was doing it because it should of been done early on, bins full , no bog roll and on top of that cleaning department was a mess. it also looks like someone has walked out of a job so YEP (and no not me). soon as i got home i just fell onto my bed and felt like saying wow. i’m thinking about ringing up this cleaning company because i still don’t have my uniform and it’s been a month now.
i found out something a little bit hurtful but it’s not new and we are kind of getting used to it. a parent went around my son’s class and gave out birthday invites to all the children but NOT LIAM.
just because my son has special needs does not mean he’s a bad person. yes he’s a little bit different to the other children but don’t treat him like he’s a bad egg. my son is a lovely , funny, caring happy boy who just wants a friend.
if it came to it i could come to the party’s and keep a eye open on him when he’s having fun with his friends and you don’t even have to talk to me…..
well i have been to see a doctor and found out that i’m stressed to the bone but like i said well hell yer not alot of people can say they found out there ex was cheating , son has crazy probs at school to a point i’m in meetings, gonna be working for a new cleaning company and know nothing about them ,dog got put to sleep because he was ill and it had to be me who had to be there when it happened because family was on holiday 😦 , i was with someone and thought everything was good until it was over , friend fall outs, then clicked on something is not right with something (can’t say online). hmmm have i not said that this is my 2016 (>_<).
been told i need to start relaxing but HOW DO YOU DO THAT (O_O). something is always bloody going on in my life.
2016 has been a crap year for me but also it has made me realize how lucky i am to have a son who thinks the universe of me.