today i have just been cleaning up my home to keep my mind off stuff and building stuff on minecraft for my son.
today is my 29th birthday and no joke i only got 3 cards this year (my nan and grandad, mum and dad, sister and her fella). mostly i get more then that but nope it looks like people forgot. on top of that no-one has come round to see me today and the only people who rang to say happy birthday was my mum and dad.
kind of want to go to bed now 😦
why is it when you try very hard at stuff but there is always gonna be people who tell you your failing. i’m doing something on my own and also some of this stuff is new to me and trying very hard but starting to feel like a fail.
that was my night tonight.
well after a hard long think and a chat with family… i’m gonna be taking a break from facebook and i’ve got to start thinking about who i call friends but don’t worry still be blogging .
on Tuesday night i had some drama again but this time it ended up with me in tears and I started to feel very low and at breaking point. i think people by now will click on that i have not been well and i’m kind of sick of telling people that i’m fine. my stress levels are high, i can’t sleep, tummy probs,low days, nightmares and on top of that my hair is falling out and going abit grey. it’s also not been the best year for me with the family dog passing, work, money, ex’s, friends aka drama. i badly need to sort out my head and fix up my health and on top of that Santa is coming and i want to be happy not feeling ill.
i’m gonna have a month off facebook but could be longer if needed.
i found out something a little bit hurtful but it’s not new and we are kind of getting used to it. a parent went around my son’s class and gave out birthday invites to all the children but NOT LIAM.
just because my son has special needs does not mean he’s a bad person. yes he’s a little bit different to the other children but don’t treat him like he’s a bad egg. my son is a lovely , funny, caring happy boy who just wants a friend.
if it came to it i could come to the party’s and keep a eye open on him when he’s having fun with his friends and you don’t even have to talk to me…..
well i have been to see a doctor and found out that i’m stressed to the bone but like i said well hell yer not alot of people can say they found out there ex was cheating , son has crazy probs at school to a point i’m in meetings, gonna be working for a new cleaning company and know nothing about them ,dog got put to sleep because he was ill and it had to be me who had to be there when it happened because family was on holiday 😦 , i was with someone and thought everything was good until it was over , friend fall outs, then clicked on something is not right with something (can’t say online). hmmm have i not said that this is my 2016 (>_<).
been told i need to start relaxing but HOW DO YOU DO THAT (O_O). something is always bloody going on in my life.
2016 has been a crap year for me but also it has made me realize how lucky i am to have a son who thinks the universe of me.
why has 2016 been a big mess up.
everything what has happened this year has been a right mess.
can’t wait for 2017….
yep im single again but not gonna say online why because i’m nice but will say i do not want to see his face again . that was the first time i was dumped for a stupid reason and being told they don’t want to wake up at 5am (>_<). 2months of happiness just gone with the click of a keybored on a phone and i feel used, a fool and a joke. thank god he never got to meet my boy who wanted to meet him.
just feel so pissed off right now its crazy.