hello my sexy friends do you remember me lol. sorry for not blogging for some time. alot has been going down and it’s been a right mess. only good thing what ha happened is liam is doing ok in school and we might be going to have a look at a special needs school.
family fall outs but been sorted.
bad news when i got told i was working for a new company by my old job they said that my contract was safe and not to worry…this week i got a phone call to be told i might be kicked down to 14hours. i went nuts because i have to do 16 and i was told everything was safe. i ended up on the phone to people because of the contract but now there saying hey don’t worry we put the two hours somewhere else 0.0.
its now sunday and i’m home just chilling about to make a nice hot drink before i go to bed.
but i did want to write about how i have been feeling abit low. don’t get me wrong i’m not having probs with liam and home stuff…but work has been the hard one. i try so hard to keep people happy but i just feel like my best is just not good for some people. on top of that people what where very near to me have now stopped talking to me and it’s because i work for new people now and that makes me feel like poop and makes my job feel odd when i see them and when i say hello and i get nothing (not even a smile).
maybe next week will be better.
last night i went to bed at 10pm and forgot to lock up but i know for a fact i put the door on yale lock so everything was gonna be ok. at night i keep my bedroom door a little bit open because i’m scared of the dark and yes i’m 29. i woke up at 3am and saw that my door was closed so i thought it must of been the cat. i woke up at 4am to get ready for work to see that my door was open so i thought i must of dreamt it. but when i saw the kitchen door i click on something was no right. that door was open and i know that i closed that because the cat likes the bin. when it was time to leave i went to the door (what is downstairs) i saw something scary…the door was not locked. so i ran back upstairs to see if someone was in my flat and if anything was missing but nope everything was ok and where it has been at night.
i did not tell anyone about it and nope i didn’t’ ring the police but tonight i will be locking everything up.
thankyou for all the birthday message’s. i got my 4th card at 10pm and yesterday other family members remembered to send a bloody message.
anyway i had some good news. i had a phone call to tell me that there gonna be testing my son for ADHD BUT they don’t no if he has it 0-0 and it might be something else. but i’m just happy that the doctor got them to push it seeing that school keep saying they will.
i kind of had a crappy morning. i went to work like normal and ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. a staff member was in a mood with me because i’m off next week and i had someone trying very hard to make me feel like i’m a failure (all before 7am). i was so happy to get home and yell into a pillow.
anyway i’m off to watch my boy play minecraft…..
i have been wanted to write about this for abit but have been putting it off because I’m abit embarrassed to talk about it BUT I just do not know what to do about it anymore.
for about 3weeks now my son keeps pooing himself. I think he’s doing it attention because he does it when I’m on the loo, bath when he’s gone to bed, on the phone, watching YouTube on laptop when he’s on the xbox and he has done it walking home from school. tonight I sat him down and I asked him why he keeps doing this but he won’t tell me…its got to a point now that I have told him if he does not stop this I might not take him to comic con and that did hit him. he’s been having probs at school this week so he is banned from playing his games… thinking about going to the doctors but I don’t think they will even help.
why is it when you try very hard at stuff but there is always gonna be people who tell you your failing. i’m doing something on my own and also some of this stuff is new to me and trying very hard but starting to feel like a fail.
that was my night tonight.
Just waiting for the monster to get out of school. I’ve had abit of a poop day. Woke up this morning with a headache,felt sick and dizzy. Soon as I got home this morning after taking Liam to school I went to bed for 2hours and headache went but still feel like poop :(.