stress head

Image result for stressed animalwell i have been to see a doctor and found out that i’m stressed to the bone but like i said well hell yer not alot of people can say they found out there ex was cheating , son has crazy probs at school to a point i’m in meetings, gonna be working for a new cleaning company and know nothing about them ,dog got put to sleep because he was ill and it had to be me who had to be there when it happened because family was on holiday 😦 ,  i was with someone and thought everything was good until it was over , friend fall outs, then clicked on something is not right with something (can’t say online). hmmm have i not said that this is my 2016 (>_<).

been told i need to start relaxing but HOW DO YOU DO THAT (O_O). something is always bloody going on in my life.

2016 has been a crap year for me but also it has made me realize how lucky i am to have a son who thinks the universe of me.

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..that dislike feeling…

walking home from work today and i thought i saw someone i once new but it won’t him. have you ever had that funny feeling when you see someone you dislike it makes you feel sick and light footed/headed… yer that’s how i went.

it’s crazy to think how last year was like and now i can’t even look at that person without that hurt feeling.

omg what a night

at 10pm i got a phone call from my dad saying that liam had one of his heat fits. i got myself sorted and walked to there house. liam was so hot so i had to pick him up and take him downstairs and sit outside the house with him to chill down. he was talking but very sleepy. by 1am me and mom where watching some police show and liam sits up fast looks at us and says i’m hungry. me and mom just looked at him in shock because one min he was out and next min he jumps up and says he’s hungry.

before anyone saying this NO he didn’t go to the hospital but that is because

  1. his fit only lasted 1min but if it lasted longer he would of had to go.
  2.  after his last one i was shown what to do if he has one.
  3. Halifax is nearly a hour away and if we had to go to the hospital we be stuck there for 4hours and i new he be better because he always comes round but if he had a 2nd one we would of had to go.
  4. had to ring work up at 4am because i have been up all night with him, got doctors and liam now just wants me also he has to be home for 24hour until he can go back to school.

hi sexy people :P

i better say sorry for not doing a blog for abit.

sadly i have had a lovely bug what had me ill for 4days. went to bed on Monday night with a headache but next day i could not lift up my head , i felt cold , belly pains and i could not talk. i now feel 90% better and started to eat again.

also I’ve been feeling kind of poop. liam has been home for 2weeks and its been cool but this week i feel kind of bad because we have not been able to go out and explore because of that dumb bug. I’ve also been feeling kind of lonely and before anyone says you got a 5 year old….yer but it  would be nice to talk to someone about stuff what is not about Star Wars and Lego’s.

feeling low

first day back at work and i ended up crying in the loo’s all because of that one person going round telling people i’m a hurtful bitch. i had people putting there nose’s in the air and pushing past me. i even had a family i have known since i was 12 blank me out but his son came up to me and gave me a hug and asked if i was ok. soon as i got home i just went into my room and cried into a pillow.  people are telling me not to listen and not to let people get to me but sometimes its just so hard.

i’m never going onto facebook again after this false allegation and people wonder why i keep to myself.