update – what has been going on and how I’m feeling

This week has been crap and I just want to get some stuff off my chest about what has gone down.

fraud

1) On Tuesday the 26th feb around 7:30pm I was on my online banking trying to working out bills when I notice that £20 had gone missing. First thing that popped into my head was arrrr Liam but when I clicked the link and it was not Xbox but some website. I copied the link to see what the website was and nope it didn’t work. I went back onto my banking about now £30 had been taken out. I clicked on what was going on and blocked my card fast.

2) The next day I contacted the bank and got everything sorted (got my lost money back yesterday) but this was not the last of it. Around 11am I got a phone call asking for Liam (my 8 year old). I asked the male why but he said he was not aloud to tell me and he needed to talk to Liam. So, I said can you please tell me why you want to talk to my 8-year-old and how did you get my number. The guy put the phone down on me and when I rang back up it was a voice message saying I needed to fill some paper work. The number has been reported but after reporting it I found out that someone has been trying to apply for payday loans in my and Liam name and they used my address, number and to be smart my email but thank god they don’t have my password to log onto my email. The sad thing about this is it must be someone I know who has done this because not a lot of people have my number and my address oh AND MY EMAIL.

My Mental Health

Not alot of people will know that i have had Depression and other problems for around 8 years BUT  I have not been feeling to good in myself for about 5 month now and I have been trying very hard to just handle it myself but this week I had 2 panic attacks.

  • On Wednesday night when I got home from work..for some stupid reason I thought someone was in my house and I started to freak out.
  • Thursday I was crying for no reason at work and sadly someone said something that day and boom.

After having a long chat with my fella I made my mind up I needed to go see a doctor. I’ve been put back onto fluoxetine and I have to go back in a month to see if the pills are working.

ARRR HE’S A PRO

I got a phone call from school yesterday saying liam had been sick. I went to pick him up and when walking home I rang up my mum and told her I think he’s faking because he does not look sick and he is not hot. soon as he got home the little sod says mummy I feel better can I play on the xbox. I WAS NOT HAPPY. I told him no because you are sick and sick people stay in bed and watch tv.

today he is still home because school say he has to stay off till Monday….BUT NOTHING IS WRONG.

need advise

i have been wanted to write about this for abit but have been putting it off because I’m abit embarrassed to talk about it BUT I just do not know what to do about it anymore.

for about 3weeks now my son keeps pooing himself. I think he’s doing it attention because he does it when I’m on the loo, bath when he’s gone to bed, on the phone, watching YouTube on laptop when he’s on the xbox and he has done it walking home from school. tonight I sat him down and  I asked him why he keeps doing this but he won’t tell me…its got to a point now that I have told him if he does not stop this I might not take him to comic con and that did hit him. he’s been having probs at school this week so he is banned from playing his games… thinking about going to the doctors but I don’t think they will even help.

WHAT A MORNING

was at home drinking my coffee and was about to watch some crappy morning tv when i got a phone call from my son’s school saying he has fallen over and opened up the side of his head. i went up to the school thinking it was only gonna be a little cut but nope IT WAS BIG and blood (as liam was saying real blood). so we went up to huddersfield royal infirmary and was stuck in there for 3hours. He has had the cut glued but like i said to him when the ladys ask you how you did it don’t tell them the truth that you fell over your own feet and landed onto a table then headbutted a wall lol.

got to have the night off work because i’m on the 24hour watch so i do hope the message got to the member of staff who i was post to be working with tonight.

health update

well after a hard long think and a chat with family… i’m gonna be taking a break from facebook and i’ve got to start thinking about who i call friends but don’t worry still be blogging .

on Tuesday night i had some drama again but this time it ended up with me in tears and I started to feel very low and at breaking point. i think people by now will click on that i have not been well and i’m kind of sick of telling people that i’m fine. my stress levels are high, i can’t sleep, tummy probs,low days, nightmares and on top of that my hair is falling out and going abit grey. it’s also not been the best year for me with the family dog passing, work, money, ex’s, friends aka drama. i badly need to sort out my head and fix up my health and on top of that Santa is coming and i want to be happy not feeling ill.

i’m gonna have a month off facebook  but could be longer if needed.