its now sunday and i’m home just chilling about to make a nice hot drink before i go to bed.
but i did want to write about how i have been feeling abit low. don’t get me wrong i’m not having probs with liam and home stuff…but work has been the hard one. i try so hard to keep people happy but i just feel like my best is just not good for some people. on top of that people what where very near to me have now stopped talking to me and it’s because i work for new people now and that makes me feel like poop and makes my job feel odd when i see them and when i say hello and i get nothing (not even a smile).
maybe next week will be better.
my son has got to a age when he keeps asking me when he is getting a dad aka when are you gonna get a boyfriend mother lol. i just look at him and say that one day mummy will meet someone and then he turns around and says well if you don’t want a dad can i have a 2nd mum 0.0… MY SON THINKS I LOVE LADYS LOL.
i was thinking about it today about going on some dates because this might shock you but guys do ask me out :O . but for some dumb reason i thought it be a good idea to read my diary and started to read about what happened to my last long relationship and how badly it ended.
i have been single for a year but scared of the dangers in being in one.
went to pick my son up from school to see that my boy has a lovely black eye. I asked him who did this to you but he didn’t say so I asked his teacher. she says someone bumped into him and in the report its been put down as a small bump.. when I was walking home I asked a parent to have a look at it and even they said liam has been punched.
off to see the office tomorrow.
i have been wanted to write about this for abit but have been putting it off because I’m abit embarrassed to talk about it BUT I just do not know what to do about it anymore.
for about 3weeks now my son keeps pooing himself. I think he’s doing it attention because he does it when I’m on the loo, bath when he’s gone to bed, on the phone, watching YouTube on laptop when he’s on the xbox and he has done it walking home from school. tonight I sat him down and I asked him why he keeps doing this but he won’t tell me…its got to a point now that I have told him if he does not stop this I might not take him to comic con and that did hit him. he’s been having probs at school this week so he is banned from playing his games… thinking about going to the doctors but I don’t think they will even help.
if people read my blogs i think it was only the other day when i did a blog about guys asking me out and how a guy i liked asked me out and i said nope (if you’re reading ask me on a date to movies or buy me a teddy lol). well i saw my bro today. he said he went out on friday night and some guy came up to him and asked if he was kera’s brother and he said yes and the guy said he used to work in the same building as me and that i’m fit…my poor bro just looked at him and said ok (lol what’s he post to say). he told me what he looked like but i don’t have a clue who it is lol.
(O_O) i do not understand what guys see in me lol.
why is it when you try very hard at stuff but there is always gonna be people who tell you your failing. i’m doing something on my own and also some of this stuff is new to me and trying very hard but starting to feel like a fail.
that was my night tonight.
well after a hard long think and a chat with family… i’m gonna be taking a break from facebook and i’ve got to start thinking about who i call friends but don’t worry still be blogging .
on Tuesday night i had some drama again but this time it ended up with me in tears and I started to feel very low and at breaking point. i think people by now will click on that i have not been well and i’m kind of sick of telling people that i’m fine. my stress levels are high, i can’t sleep, tummy probs,low days, nightmares and on top of that my hair is falling out and going abit grey. it’s also not been the best year for me with the family dog passing, work, money, ex’s, friends aka drama. i badly need to sort out my head and fix up my health and on top of that Santa is coming and i want to be happy not feeling ill.
i’m gonna have a month off facebook but could be longer if needed.