wow i wish i could tell you about my week but i can only say that i spent my wednesday night with my head down the loo, can’t forget having the poops and having nose bleeds oh and can’t forget not been sleeping.
the only good thing what has happened this week is that i had a meeting with school and now i’m aloud to look into special needs school (been fighting for years for this).
today i made my mind up that i need a chill day so took liam to the meltham fun fair and spent £20 in a hour but it was lovely to see his face. oh and part of his xmas gift came today (The Legend of Zelda: The Breath of the Wild and Splatoon 2).
what a bloody week it has been. in my last post you can read that i was not well. LIAM GOT IT. he came home from school on monday not feeling to good and boom. poor guy has been on and off all week.
whoop just guess who had been unwell since thursday. for once it is not liam but me. got that lovely bug what has been going round what makes you cough , full of cold, dizzy and sleepy. on top of this i have been going to work feeling like crap lol. remember when i said i can’t bloody sleep hmmm well i have been going to bed at 9pm and waking at 7am and still feeling like poop lol.
sorry for not blogging for a week. I mostly try and do 3 blogs a week but nothing has been going on in my life right now. I don’t no if that’s a good or a bad thing but life has been ok.
I was not well this morning. got up at 4am and my head was just banging and spinning. I went to work because we have a new guy and it won’t be cool to ring up and say sorry I’m sick you have to do everything. before anyone asks no I have not been drinking but I have been very sleepy for some days and I have a funny feeling it hit me this morning.
i forgot to put what my son did yesterday.
we got up at 7am because it’s a school day. took me 10mins to get my child out of bed (its like having a teen lol). he had his breakfast and a glass of milk and everything was ok until 8am when he said he was not feeling very well and he had been sick at night on his bed. i went into his bedroom and there was no sick anywhere and no smell of sick. when i was dressing him i looked and smelled but nope. i did the mummy test and told him he looked ok and he is not hot so he is going to school. the walk to school was fine and liam was talking to me about something but soon as he got into the classroom he started to act like he was sick so the teacher said if hes still like this by 12pm we will ring you. hmmm 12pm came and i got a phone call to come pick him up because he’s not well. takes me 15mins to get to school and when i got there i bloody saw him running around the playground and i thought hmmm he’s sick. soon as i got into the office they came with liam and i looked him over again and said i hope you no he’s faking but school said sorry but because he says hes not well and hes acting odd i have to take him. on the way home and this is no joke he turns around and says to me Mummy i feel so much better now can i play on the ps4 when we get home. (O_O) well i won’t to happy so i said NO your post to be sick and sick people don’t get to play games but they do go to bed and stay in there bedrooms…
today he went to school and no probs.
well i have been to see a doctor and found out that i’m stressed to the bone but like i said well hell yer not alot of people can say they found out there ex was cheating , son has crazy probs at school to a point i’m in meetings, gonna be working for a new cleaning company and know nothing about them ,dog got put to sleep because he was ill and it had to be me who had to be there when it happened because family was on holiday 😦 , i was with someone and thought everything was good until it was over , friend fall outs, then clicked on something is not right with something (can’t say online). hmmm have i not said that this is my 2016 (>_<).
been told i need to start relaxing but HOW DO YOU DO THAT (O_O). something is always bloody going on in my life.
2016 has been a crap year for me but also it has made me realize how lucky i am to have a son who thinks the universe of me.
first i want to say sorry for not doing any blogs for some days. i deleted my last blog i had on here but something very hurtful happened to me and my heart is hurting right now (nothing to do with my son). i have done nothing but cry for 4days in a row, don’t want to eat and i can’t sleep. i even talked to this person on Wednesday and said we can only say hello but sadly the next day i thought about it and i can’t do that because i love him and it hurts and there is to much water now under the tunnel. so i’m just going to not talk to him anymore and move on. my family and friends are being so nice to me and i have to admit i have been feeling like doing something bad but i just have to look at liam to keep my mind form thinking about hurting myself.
today i have not cried but i still feel the pain. i did something kind of odd. i started to read MY LIFE STORY book i have been doing for 3years now. i thought no keys don’t read it or your going to get upset but nope… after reading it i thought why am i crying.
i might feel very broken right now but life has to move on and it will get better. It just takes time.