well i have been to see a doctor and found out that i’m stressed to the bone but like i said well hell yer not alot of people can say they found out there ex was cheating , son has crazy probs at school to a point i’m in meetings, gonna be working for a new cleaning company and know nothing about them ,dog got put to sleep because he was ill and it had to be me who had to be there when it happened because family was on holiday 😦 , i was with someone and thought everything was good until it was over , friend fall outs, then clicked on something is not right with something (can’t say online). hmmm have i not said that this is my 2016 (>_<).
been told i need to start relaxing but HOW DO YOU DO THAT (O_O). something is always bloody going on in my life.
2016 has been a crap year for me but also it has made me realize how lucky i am to have a son who thinks the universe of me.
first i want to say sorry for not doing any blogs for some days. i deleted my last blog i had on here but something very hurtful happened to me and my heart is hurting right now (nothing to do with my son). i have done nothing but cry for 4days in a row, don’t want to eat and i can’t sleep. i even talked to this person on Wednesday and said we can only say hello but sadly the next day i thought about it and i can’t do that because i love him and it hurts and there is to much water now under the tunnel. so i’m just going to not talk to him anymore and move on. my family and friends are being so nice to me and i have to admit i have been feeling like doing something bad but i just have to look at liam to keep my mind form thinking about hurting myself.
today i have not cried but i still feel the pain. i did something kind of odd. i started to read MY LIFE STORY book i have been doing for 3years now. i thought no keys don’t read it or your going to get upset but nope… after reading it i thought why am i crying.
i might feel very broken right now but life has to move on and it will get better. It just takes time.
i better say sorry for not doing a blog for abit.
sadly i have had a lovely bug what had me ill for 4days. went to bed on Monday night with a headache but next day i could not lift up my head , i felt cold , belly pains and i could not talk. i now feel 90% better and started to eat again.
also I’ve been feeling kind of poop. liam has been home for 2weeks and its been cool but this week i feel kind of bad because we have not been able to go out and explore because of that dumb bug. I’ve also been feeling kind of lonely and before anyone says you got a 5 year old….yer but it would be nice to talk to someone about stuff what is not about Star Wars and Lego’s.
please sign the petition to keep the Huddersfield hospital open. so many life’s will be lost if they shut down HRI. https://petition.parliament.uk/petitions/118690
i mostly don’t do blogs like this but this petition means so much to me and to everyone in my home town..
been up all night being ill. yep i have got the sickness bug off my son and i feel like death. it started at 10pm Wednesday and now its 7:15am and i’m in pain. i was planning to go to work like this but by 6am i had to ring up and say sorry but i have got the sickness bug (work won’t happy with me).
well i better tell everyone that i’m feeling alot better today. have you ever had one of them days when there is to much going on and you just can’t take anymore.
i was working yesterday and yes it was a good day there. after work my mother told me that pre-school have been kicking off because liam was to hyper today, been told that liam has no friends and on-one wants to play with him (that made me cry), also liam keeps saying poo head to everyone but like my mum said he has got that off a child at school but the helper said are children don’t say stuff like that ARRR I NO THE SODDING CHILD WHO SAYS IT >:(. today pre-school didn’t say anything to me but they did hear me talking to a mother about liam saying poo head and like she said sadly children always pick up stuff like this and best bit is its never from home its outside or school….
wow its been a crazy night. i was up till 3am because my little man thought it would be cool to start being sick (started at 11pm). right now its 12:14pm and hes still being sick so the only thing i can do is just give him juice. ive got two bed blankets outside and got two more to go into the wash.