well it has been a long time since i used this site. Alot has been going on in my life its crazy.
1st i want to say that i’m feeling alot better. the only prob that i have right now is i’m having nasty dreams what are making me not want to sleep. i have learned i sleep better with the tv on. i’m still on fluoxetine.
2nd work – have you ever upset someone but don’t have a clue what you have done…yep that is me.
3rd school – the UK department of education have said nope to get liam into a new school that can help him with his needs. so i’m now waiting for a letter for i can appeal for the 3rd time and school have to pay £400 to get someone out again to assess liam AGAIN. i have already made up my mind that liam is NOT going to high school because there is no way he will handle it so it looks like i’m gonna have to home school him.
4rd my grandad is not well…
This week has been crap and I just want to get some stuff off my chest about what has gone down.
1) On Tuesday the 26th feb around 7:30pm I was on my online banking trying to working out bills when I notice that £20 had gone missing. First thing that popped into my head was arrrr Liam but when I clicked the link and it was not Xbox but some website. I copied the link to see what the website was and nope it didn’t work. I went back onto my banking about now £30 had been taken out. I clicked on what was going on and blocked my card fast.
2) The next day I contacted the bank and got everything sorted (got my lost money back yesterday) but this was not the last of it. Around 11am I got a phone call asking for Liam (my 8 year old). I asked the male why but he said he was not aloud to tell me and he needed to talk to Liam. So, I said can you please tell me why you want to talk to my 8-year-old and how did you get my number. The guy put the phone down on me and when I rang back up it was a voice message saying I needed to fill some paper work. The number has been reported but after reporting it I found out that someone has been trying to apply for payday loans in my and Liam name and they used my address, number and to be smart my email but thank god they don’t have my password to log onto my email. The sad thing about this is it must be someone I know who has done this because not a lot of people have my number and my address oh AND MY EMAIL.
My Mental Health
Not alot of people will know that i have had Depression and other problems for around 8 years BUT I have not been feeling to good in myself for about 5 month now and I have been trying very hard to just handle it myself but this week I had 2 panic attacks.
- On Wednesday night when I got home from work..for some stupid reason I thought someone was in my house and I started to freak out.
- Thursday I was crying for no reason at work and sadly someone said something that day and boom.
After having a long chat with my fella I made my mind up I needed to go see a doctor. I’ve been put back onto fluoxetine and I have to go back in a month to see if the pills are working.
Whoop started my week off today and what a time to book it…ON A BLOODY SCHOOL HOLIDAY WEEK lol. When I booked it I didn’t look into the school holiday times.
It’s been a fun week. Liam broke his shoes on Monday and thought hey I can’t go to school with broken shoes but he was shocked when I put him into his pumps and told him he can wear them to school. OH and i forgot to tell you that me and LIAM are gonna be doing a midnight 6mile walk for Kirkwood Hospice. If you want to support https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/liamprice2010
work – Been busy at work.
My course work is going well and I’m learning a lot but I’m also taking my time because I do find it hard to sit down for a long time and I have to read something like 5times to get it into my head. I’m just waiting for some books to show up to help me a little bit. But I am nearly done doing my first assessment.
I made a deal with myself that this year i want to read more classic books and also to try and de-stress myself and try not to make myself ill with it like last year when i got to a point i was going dizzy. So right now i’m reading wuthering heights by emily bronte but the stress thing has not worked. Today i just spent the day with a upset tummy.
On monday it was a very slow day at work, Tuesday found out that the council have said no for getting liam into a special needs school so now we (school) are taking it to a tribunal, wednesday came to work to find out my hours have changed, Thursday and friday just hearing stuff about work. I know this is gonna sound bad and there be that one person who will be saying oh keys says this online but it would be nice just to have one week with no probs…not long till my week off and no phone on lol.
wow i wish i could tell you about my week but i can only say that i spent my wednesday night with my head down the loo, can’t forget having the poops and having nose bleeds oh and can’t forget not been sleeping.
the only good thing what has happened this week is that i had a meeting with school and now i’m aloud to look into special needs school (been fighting for years for this).
today i made my mind up that i need a chill day so took liam to the meltham fun fair and spent £20 in a hour but it was lovely to see his face. oh and part of his xmas gift came today (The Legend of Zelda: The Breath of the Wild and Splatoon 2).
got to admit that this week has sucked monkey balls. just one simple thing can mess up your week and make you feel like a bug under a boot.
i made my mind up that saturday was gonna be a fun day and forget about what happened this week. took liam and scott to town and wow they do both make me laugh but if i hear i want to go home one more time i’m gonna scream lol.
this morning was not fun. i woke up at 3am to scott snoring his head off. it got to a point when i got my pillow and red blanket and slept on liam’s floor. i was woken up at 7:30am to liam hitting me with teddys thinking that i was a monster on his floor 0.0.
well we had a fun morning. I got a email from paypal saying something had come out but me being me i thought oh it be a bill. I went to see what liam was playing and it was fortnight. I notice he had alot of vbucks and i asked how he got them and he said he won them. something sounded odd so i went to look at my paypal and liam had spent £80 on the bloody game. I was not happy and there was alot of me yelling because this money was to pay off my tax on the 28th and also how did he get into my paypal. After chilling down i had a long chat with liam about what he had done wrong he just could not understand so I explained to liam how would you like it if you was saving money for roblox and mummy went a spent it…he got very upset and said sorry but like i said don’t cry over spilt milk because it just means mummy has to use her credit card (not something i wanted to do). I asked liam to show me how he did it and after he showed me i clicked on what had happened. I thought liam had worked out my password for paypal but nope when i payed for liam Fortnite stuff on payday the xbox saved my card details without me knowing.
everything is fixed and next time i will just pay by paypal not by my card…new day tomorrow.