its now sunday and i’m home just chilling about to make a nice hot drink before i go to bed.
but i did want to write about how i have been feeling abit low. don’t get me wrong i’m not having probs with liam and home stuff…but work has been the hard one. i try so hard to keep people happy but i just feel like my best is just not good for some people. on top of that people what where very near to me have now stopped talking to me and it’s because i work for new people now and that makes me feel like poop and makes my job feel odd when i see them and when i say hello and i get nothing (not even a smile).
maybe next week will be better.
i’m in bed watching some tv and talking to my cat when i clicked on how i do not have friends. i have people i talk to but i don’t have people who want to see me for a coffee or ask me when i’m free or if they can come to mine and hang out.
i spend alot of time just chilling with my son and cat…would be nice to have a friend.
my son has got to a age when he keeps asking me when he is getting a dad aka when are you gonna get a boyfriend mother lol. i just look at him and say that one day mummy will meet someone and then he turns around and says well if you don’t want a dad can i have a 2nd mum 0.0… MY SON THINKS I LOVE LADYS LOL.
i was thinking about it today about going on some dates because this might shock you but guys do ask me out :O . but for some dumb reason i thought it be a good idea to read my diary and started to read about what happened to my last long relationship and how badly it ended.
i have been single for a year but scared of the dangers in being in one.
have you ever been in bed and just felt abit lonely and start to think hmmm should I start dating again…..but 5mins later click on why your single and your better off alone lol.
sooooooooo getting a pet dog next year lol.
sorry for not blogging since friday. sometimes i just don’t think people want to know whats going on in my crazy mind. one min i feel happy as pie but soon as i sit down and i’m alone my head starts to think and i feel lonely as pie.
i’ve also notice since i’ve been keeping to myself the people i don’t mostly talk to are being friendly but the people who say there my friends have not said a thing and have not even asked me if i’m ok and also last week when i told someone about not feeling to good he only said alright (O_O). i’ve made up my mind that soon as 2017 hits alot of people are going and i’m gonna try and make new friends (but don’t no how lol).
I do not understand but this morning when i woke up i just felt crappy. i didn’t want to get out of bed so i had to make myself because of liam. we was post to go to town but i was not in the mood but did get some shopping done from the local shop. I’ve just been sat at home watching you tube , ps4 and Disney films. Its now 20:44pm and I’m sat watching horror films and feeling abit happy but because liam has gone to bed i have no-one to talk to :(.
does anyone else have days like this???
i think i’ve done a blog like this in the past but i can’t remember but i’m really thinking about deleting facebook for good. last night i was trying to take off nearly all the photos of me and family and put them onto my laptop but clicked on that i badly need a memory stick (got to wait till friday).
in the past it used to be a site i would look forward to going on and talking to people but sadly nearly everyone i used to be friends with turned out to be plebs or just stopped talking to me or drama. every time i log onto it now it’s only to play games and family sending me messages or all the old people who have seen me grow up want to see photos of liam.
i deleted fb off my phone 2weeks ago because i got so sick to death of turning my internet on and messages just popping up what where just stressing and upsetting me. when i log onto the site by my laptop i still get that feeling of OH PLEASE NO CRAP TODAY. also its the only site i know when you block someone it start’s a keys unblock that person war and then i have to unblock that person and see there site what i do not want to see because it upsets me.
i might try and have a week away from it starting next week and then delete it so it gives me time to get all the photos and give people a heads up whats gonna happen. i no some people are gonna be peed but i feel like this will make me feel better if i do it.