its now sunday and i’m home just chilling about to make a nice hot drink before i go to bed.
but i did want to write about how i have been feeling abit low. don’t get me wrong i’m not having probs with liam and home stuff…but work has been the hard one. i try so hard to keep people happy but i just feel like my best is just not good for some people. on top of that people what where very near to me have now stopped talking to me and it’s because i work for new people now and that makes me feel like poop and makes my job feel odd when i see them and when i say hello and i get nothing (not even a smile).
maybe next week will be better.
last week I got paid but sadly I was taxed £160 and I can’t get the money back till next year and because my big bills have now been paid my money sucks right now. on top of that housing has suspended my benefit payments after I have told them for 6monthss that my wage is everywhere and I do not know what is going on. this means now that I have to pay full council tax (paying £60 right now) and my rent will be £70 a week….
just feel like hiding under my bedroom :(.
sorry for not blogging a lot. like I said in my last post something big has happened and sadly I have now been told if it goes to court its her word not mine so I have to admit that has peed me off but good news I have got some money out of one prob but sadly I’m not aloud to say nothing. don’t worry i’m not going to court lol but a lot has happened.
anyway lets change the chat to some happy news. it was parents meeting tonight and I thought noooooooooooooo. Liam is bril in maths and good at English . school are on about getting a behavioural psychologist for Liam but he’s not as bad as he was (just have to see).
i have been wanted to write about this for abit but have been putting it off because I’m abit embarrassed to talk about it BUT I just do not know what to do about it anymore.
for about 3weeks now my son keeps pooing himself. I think he’s doing it attention because he does it when I’m on the loo, bath when he’s gone to bed, on the phone, watching YouTube on laptop when he’s on the xbox and he has done it walking home from school. tonight I sat him down and I asked him why he keeps doing this but he won’t tell me…its got to a point now that I have told him if he does not stop this I might not take him to comic con and that did hit him. he’s been having probs at school this week so he is banned from playing his games… thinking about going to the doctors but I don’t think they will even help.
why is it when you try very hard at stuff but there is always gonna be people who tell you your failing. i’m doing something on my own and also some of this stuff is new to me and trying very hard but starting to feel like a fail.
that was my night tonight.
i can’t wait to start a new year and put everything what happened in the bin.
2016 has kind of been crap for me…if someone said hey this year your job will change, family dog will be put to sleep, find out ya ex was cheating on ya, son needs more help (life skills/probs) ,money probs (thankyou kirklees), some crazy person will go round blacking your name, date someone and they dump you for money/work, you will end a 20 year friendship…..
lets hope next year will be a hell of alot better.
sorry for not blogging since friday. sometimes i just don’t think people want to know whats going on in my crazy mind. one min i feel happy as pie but soon as i sit down and i’m alone my head starts to think and i feel lonely as pie.
i’ve also notice since i’ve been keeping to myself the people i don’t mostly talk to are being friendly but the people who say there my friends have not said a thing and have not even asked me if i’m ok and also last week when i told someone about not feeling to good he only said alright (O_O). i’ve made up my mind that soon as 2017 hits alot of people are going and i’m gonna try and make new friends (but don’t no how lol).