feeling crappy

last night was kind of hard for me. mostly on a Wednesday night i jump onto a bus and head up to see someone but last night i could not do that. i was kind of hoping he would be a man and pop up and say his side to my face but nope…i was home alone so ended up in bed by 8pm.

soon as i went to my mothers after work to pick my son’s night stuff up she asked me if  I’ve had a phone call or a visit but sadly nope and i don’t think i will sadly. i kind of feel like a used teddy what someone got bored of :(.

 

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been a odd week

some of the moms at school have no-test that the young lads aka liam and his friends have started to play a game where they hit each other in the boy parts and say oh my penis. one of the mothers said oh that her son said it was liam he learned it from but like my mother said hang on liam has heard it from a older child (from school) and i’m a single mother so why would i be saying this and teaching him this game and i’m not making my son sound like a angel hear but liam has stopped saying this word after i told him what it was and that its not a thing to say at school and no-one has told me nothing about this game. i had to sit down with liam last night and had to tell him not to kick or slap boys in that part but liam keeps telling me he’s doing nothing. i do hope i don’t hear anymore about it.

2) on a Monday i thought hey i’m going to finally send someone a message who i have not talked to in 12years after a fall out. when i was about to write to this person i no-test that they said something to me in march 2016 what i didn’t see until now. i won’t to happy about what it said because it was something to do with the past. so for the first time in 12years i told them the truth about what happened on a that day AND like i said to this person i’m happy i got to tell them and now i can close that chapter in my life. its now Friday and i have had nothing back and to tell you the truth i don’t think i will.

LIFE GOES ON.

what a sodding morning

well i had a fun morning.

the lady who sadly lost her daughter came out her house and asked me if i said anything on facebook. well i said yes but i only put i was sad and shocked. well she went crazy on me and started to yell at me saying that i put her childs name all over the internet (but i do not know there names). i told her that i have not and if i have upset you i’m sorry. she then started to shout out she was going to ring up the police on me. i mostly would of not give a crap about this because the woman has alot going on but WHEN SHE WAS YELLING RIGHT NEXT TO MY SON (O_O). i got hold of liam’s hand and just left her yelling at me. liam asked me what was that about and i told him we are just not friends anymore. i found out when i got home that some silly person had put the womans name on my fb page so i deleted the status and deleted a hell of alot of people and i even left a new status. my mom and dad said don’t worry about it because you have done nothing wrong and if she yells at you again saying stuff like this report her to the police. my mother took me out to a have a coffee and went around the charty shops and when we was in the shop two ladys where talking about the woman hmmmm wonder if i will be blamed for that (O_O). 

 well i had a fun morning. i just had my neighbour having a right go at me next to my son all because someone had told her that i have put her childs name all over my facebook page. like i said to the lady i did put something online but i did not say her name (because i didn’t no her name). she kept yelling at me when i was walking away and at the same time saying she was going to ring the police on me for putting her childs name all over the internet.

I spent 2hours last night in tears thinking about what had happened so having this woman yelling at me made me feel more crap.
Because of this I have deleted a lot of people off my fb page (was going to delete page but to many photos). Thank you for blacking my name and making me sound like a hurtful bitch to everyone in meltham.

ps i had depression for 4 years after i had my son ….i’m not going to do anything stupid but i will say always be careful when you try to talk poop about stuff like this…. right now i’m just in shock and feeling sick.

rip kelly :(

7 years you have been gone but it feels like yesterday we was laughing and acting like Muppets. I miss you everyday woody and I’m always thinking of all the stuff we did. I was watching a horror movie the other night and I can remember once watching The Ring and my phone started to ring omg you nearly made me poop myself that night lol.

I have the last photo I had with you on my wall in my frontroom. When I feel so low I look at it and you will make me smile again.

Miss you Kelly….we will meet again one day.