why is it when you try very hard at stuff but there is always gonna be people who tell you your failing. i’m doing something on my own and also some of this stuff is new to me and trying very hard but starting to feel like a fail.
that was my night tonight.
i can’t wait to start a new year and put everything what happened in the bin.
2016 has kind of been crap for me…if someone said hey this year your job will change, family dog will be put to sleep, find out ya ex was cheating on ya, son needs more help (life skills/probs) ,money probs (thankyou kirklees), some crazy person will go round blacking your name, date someone and they dump you for money/work, you will end a 20 year friendship…..
lets hope next year will be a hell of alot better.
wtf just happened (O_O).
i was walking home from school with my son and a other girl from his school when a woman started to swear at me saying that i pushed her son into the road on Helme Lane. i have to admit that i was not looking in front of me when walking because the girl who was walking with us was talking but i did say sorry. well the woman didn’t take my sorry and started to swear in front of me, my son, the girl and her children. she started to say she was gonna smash my face in so i turned around and walked away but she was still swearing and saying to watch myself or i will get my face smashed in…. when we walked off the girl was abit worried and also liam but like i said them do not worry about it because if someone acts like that it just shows what kind of person she is….
but have to admit it did worry me when she said she was gonna smash my face in next to my son and other children.
well i have been to see a doctor and found out that i’m stressed to the bone but like i said well hell yer not alot of people can say they found out there ex was cheating , son has crazy probs at school to a point i’m in meetings, gonna be working for a new cleaning company and know nothing about them ,dog got put to sleep because he was ill and it had to be me who had to be there when it happened because family was on holiday 😦 , i was with someone and thought everything was good until it was over , friend fall outs, then clicked on something is not right with something (can’t say online). hmmm have i not said that this is my 2016 (>_<).
been told i need to start relaxing but HOW DO YOU DO THAT (O_O). something is always bloody going on in my life.
2016 has been a crap year for me but also it has made me realize how lucky i am to have a son who thinks the universe of me.
sorry for not blogging alot this week. sadly i just have not been in a good mood to do anything lately but life has to keep on going even if its hard.
liam has been hurting people again. i thought hey we have sorted out the probs but nope he’s still having probs. school now have a smile chart what gets sent home to me to see what he’s doing. he been getting good days nearly all this week but a bad day today 😦 .
also don’t you just hate it when you click on that your just a friend to some people when they need you but if you need them you get nothing. yep sadly this week i have worked it out that sadly i know people like that. i really needed someone this week but i made my mind up that this time i will not contact them for once and they can talk to me first (last talked (1/10/16)….well i got nothing back and not even a hello knowing that i needed them. before anyone reads this and says oh i’ve been busy hmmm sorry but no-one is that busy to send a message to ask how you are doing….
first i want to say sorry for not doing any blogs for some days. i deleted my last blog i had on here but something very hurtful happened to me and my heart is hurting right now (nothing to do with my son). i have done nothing but cry for 4days in a row, don’t want to eat and i can’t sleep. i even talked to this person on Wednesday and said we can only say hello but sadly the next day i thought about it and i can’t do that because i love him and it hurts and there is to much water now under the tunnel. so i’m just going to not talk to him anymore and move on. my family and friends are being so nice to me and i have to admit i have been feeling like doing something bad but i just have to look at liam to keep my mind form thinking about hurting myself.
today i have not cried but i still feel the pain. i did something kind of odd. i started to read MY LIFE STORY book i have been doing for 3years now. i thought no keys don’t read it or your going to get upset but nope… after reading it i thought why am i crying.
i might feel very broken right now but life has to move on and it will get better. It just takes time.
today did start very bad and sad but it soon came up good after.
THIS AFTERNOON – went and took liam to see the new angry birds movie. he loved it but i felt like it was ok but not bril. we also went to pizza hut 🙂 . so the afternoon was bril.
THIS MORNING – i do not no if anyone remembers but i did a blog about how someone started to talk to me after 12years (https://keys1988.com/2016/05/13/been-a-odd-week/ ). well i can now say it was a ex from my teens. we started to talk to each other last week and both even said sorry for how we acted in are teens but sadly he turned. i do not understand myself how it turned like this because i only said that i was a mum now…but i got called a child,nasty and a bitch and i had a false accusation said about me about a different guy (What was a bloody sodding lie 😡 ) . i tried to talk to him but he sent a message back saying hes not going to read what i just put. so i said bye and blocked him.
sometimes in life you just got to let people go and move on and never talk to them again. only thing i have learned is i NEVER want to date anyone again.