Well I can finally say that Liam is no longer part of his old school. I got the email on Monday after I had to contact the school by email to see if they had signed him off.
But its not all good news. Liam is
having problems with anxiety. We had one attack last Monday what ended up with
him hitting himself and today we had a day of him digging his nails into his
legs. I went to the doctors last week but they were no help. I do have a number
I found off the NHS website so going to give them a buzz. I’m trying very hard
not to put to much stress on him but I also no that he thinks he’s dumb (what
for sometime I have notice a big change in my son. he spends a lot of time in his room, seems to be down, tells me he’s stupid and shows anxiety. On top of that it’s been very hard to get him up in the morning and getting him ready for school has been hell. he has ripped trousers – shoes – bookbags, tried to fall down the stairs, keeps picking his nose at night and rubbing the blood all over him and other stuff.
on the 21st of this month I went up to school around 2:40pm and saw Liam’s class outside doing PE. I had a look about to see if I could see Liam and I found him in the shelter with some girls but no helper (he is post to have one to one). Liam was poking a boy on the head on the other side of the shelter. The boy went into the shelter, picked Liam up by his jumper, pushed him up to the wall and started to smash Liam’s face in. The girls tried to pull the child off Liam but with no luck. Thank god the PE teacher (a male) came to help save Liam. he moved the boy off Liam..but by then liam was on the floor screaming. oh and if you want to know what his teacher was doing. PLAYING CRICKET WITH THE OTHER CHILDREN AND NOT WATCHING THE FIGHT. she did go up to Liam after 10mins later but it looked like she was getting Liam to apologize to the boy who just went for his face. After PE I went up to the teacher and said that I saw everything (I was in shock and holding in my tears). she said well Liam was poking the boy and that he had been a wet sponge all day. soon as she said that I saw fire in my eyes and shouted LOOK AT HIS FACE ITS BLACK AND BLUE but she said oh that’s because he been crying all day. Liam was next to his teacher and looked so scared and shaken up…she even tried to ask Liam what had happened but he would not talk. I think she worked it out that I was pissed off because she wanted to get back to class very fast. When it was home time 2 girls came out with him because he was in a right mess. He came up to me and said I’m I in trouble and I said no.
The next day I rang up school and said that Liam will not be coming back to school until the 3rd June after what I saw yesterday and also it didn’t help that liam did not want to come back. The headteacher said she is doing a report and that the child who did this will not be in until the 3rd. So this means the child who did this gets two weeks of holiday and i’m dealing with a child who has anxiety and lost his confidence. So i told the head that i was gonna deregister him on the 3rd. well soon as I said that she went on about how they were going to sort out Liam’s feet, speech and going to ring up other people. There was also a chat about how Liam has been for the past months (what they should have told me right away) I also was told I was going to get a phone call back at the end of the day BUT NOPE NOTHING ALL WEEK.
since being home schooled me and my mother have learned Liam can read but can’t write the alphabet, can’t spell , can’t write numbers and didn’t even know how to count on his fingers..
We are working on it but soon as he works that he be getting on track. I have notice a big change and its so lovely to see him smile again.
i have been feeling low for about 3weeks and today i thought ok i’m gonna go see a doctor and see if they can help me out. i went in to book and nope no-one can see me. when i was walking out the building someone asked me if i was ok and sadly i had to hold my tears and say i’m fine.
i can’t say what is going on in my life right now but i feel like i’m gonna go bang.
today i have just been cleaning up my home to keep my mind off stuff and building stuff on minecraft for my son.
today is my 29th birthday and no joke i only got 3 cards this year (my nan and grandad, mum and dad, sister and her fella). mostly i get more then that but nope it looks like people forgot. on top of that no-one has come round to see me today and the only people who rang to say happy birthday was my mum and dad.
just found out today that the old school i went to in my teens is moving to a new building and is getting a new name. i feel kind of sad about it because i had so many good memories from that school but i’m also happy because they need more space.
i can’t wait to start a new year and put everything what happened in the bin.
2016 has kind of been crap for me…if someone said hey this year your job will change, family dog will be put to sleep, find out ya ex was cheating on ya, son needs more help (life skills/probs) ,money probs (thankyou kirklees), some crazy person will go round blacking your name, date someone and they dump you for money/work, you will end a 20 year friendship…..
lets hope next year will be a hell of alot better.