yesterday

2pm yesterday i was just getting ready to go to my mums when I got a phone call from liam school. liam had one of his fits in his class and the ambulance was on there way. the walk to his school is 20mins but I ran like the wind and did it in 15mins.

wnen we got to Calderdale Royal Hospital liam was still blacked out but because there was no rooms we had to wait in the waiting room with my son in my arms. he came round after a hour and I had to tell him what had happened. we was suck in the waiting room for 3 years and spent a hour in the doctor room until they came back with the tests saying everything was ok but he needs to do a wee test but because liam was now asleep we have to do that at home.

he slept in my bed last night and is still in my bed right now watching youtube. he has to go and see a doctor and give them the wee test and see if he is ok.

busy Monday

got up at 4am and was in work by 4:45am. left work after 4hours and walked up to the my son’s school and found out he left his school bag at his nans so I had to go home and drop his night stuff at mine then go to his nans to get his school bag and go up to school and drop it off so by the time I got home it was 10am. at 11am I got a phone call from my boss asking if I could pop in at 12pm for 2hours because a cleaner has phoned in sick and I said ok. went back to work at 11:30am to 13:30pm and by the time I got home I just wanted to fall over lol.

life and need sleep

started the new cleaning company yesterday and i had to be up at 4am. The job went well but just need to get used to the new stuff i have to do. i still don’t have the new gear and no name tag so hope that don’t take long.

today coffee is my best friend lol.

got a school parent meeting tonight …wish me luck lol. might end up falling asleep in one of the small chairs lol.

nightmares

i keep having nightmares nearly every night.

last night i woke up with a jump all because i had a dream i left liam home and i went to town and when i came home the windows where open and liam was cleaning (O_O). other night i had a dream some crazy person was going around town with a gun.

i kind of want the dreams to stop…. i’m i having crazy dreams because of my stress probs?

stress head

Image result for stressed animalwell i have been to see a doctor and found out that i’m stressed to the bone but like i said well hell yer not alot of people can say they found out there ex was cheating , son has crazy probs at school to a point i’m in meetings, gonna be working for a new cleaning company and know nothing about them ,dog got put to sleep because he was ill and it had to be me who had to be there when it happened because family was on holiday 😦 ,  i was with someone and thought everything was good until it was over , friend fall outs, then clicked on something is not right with something (can’t say online). hmmm have i not said that this is my 2016 (>_<).

been told i need to start relaxing but HOW DO YOU DO THAT (O_O). something is always bloody going on in my life.

2016 has been a crap year for me but also it has made me realize how lucky i am to have a son who thinks the universe of me.