I made a deal with myself that this year i want to read more classic books and also to try and de-stress myself and try not to make myself ill with it like last year when i got to a point i was going dizzy. So right now i’m reading wuthering heights by emily bronte but the stress thing has not worked. Today i just spent the day with a upset tummy.
On monday it was a very slow day at work, Tuesday found out that the council have said no for getting liam into a special needs school so now we (school) are taking it to a tribunal, wednesday came to work to find out my hours have changed, Thursday and friday just hearing stuff about work. I know this is gonna sound bad and there be that one person who will be saying oh keys says this online but it would be nice just to have one week with no probs…not long till my week off and no phone on lol.
i don’t know what is wrong with me but i just don’t feel that christmas feeling that everyone is getting right now at this time of the year. i have even been making myself watch santa films but nope.
i just feel like it’s that time of the year when your money goes crazy and bills love to change days for there money and oh we can’t forget the christmas shopping. this year i am only shopping for my son, fella, mum,dad, sister and brother because there the only people who see me but already found out one of them have spent a 5 pound on me after i spent £15.
september has gone and it’s time to start a new month and lets pray it’s better than the last month. sadly i can not say what went down last month but i can say that..
- some people are proud of me and some people have just stopped talking to me because i finally talked.
- some people talk alot of crap about me.
- i hate rumours.
i just hope that this month is gonna be so much better and less stress. i’m trying so hard to just keep to myself and just trust my family and fella
my 2nd day of my 2week holiday and for the first time in a long time i have just chilled with no stress and no probs.
yesterday was a different story. liam had to go see a development team. we left to get the 8:45am bus so we could go have something to eat in town for breakfast but the bloody bus did not show up till 9:30am and we needed to be at the building at 10:30am. after he saw the team we ended up getting a burger and took him to school (back for 1pm).
whoop i can now tell you people a little bit about what has been going on. after the fun and games with school i had to have a behaviour nurse come round to my house. after a long chat she has turned around and said i do not have to see her again but like i said i bet she be back soon because everytime something goes wrong at school THEY ALWAYS BLAME HOME. i’m also post to be going onto a course about behaviour thanks to school.