life

Well I can finally say that Liam is no longer part of his old school. I got the email on Monday after I had to contact the school by email to see if they had signed him off.

But its not all good news. Liam is having problems with anxiety. We had one attack last Monday what ended up with him hitting himself and today we had a day of him digging his nails into his legs. I went to the doctors last week but they were no help. I do have a number I found off the NHS website so going to give them a buzz. I’m trying very hard not to put to much stress on him but I also no that he thinks he’s dumb (what upsets me).

BIG UPDATE ON LIAM

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took this 21/5/19 6pm

for sometime I have notice a big change in my son. he spends a lot of time in his room, seems to be down, tells me he’s stupid and shows anxiety. On top of that it’s been very hard to get him up in the morning and getting him ready for school has been hell. he has ripped trousers – shoes – bookbags, tried to fall down the stairs, keeps picking his nose at night and rubbing the blood all over him and other stuff.

on the 21st of this month I went up to school around 2:40pm and saw Liam’s class outside doing PE. I had a look about to see if I could see Liam and I found him in the shelter with some girls but no helper (he is post to have one to one). Liam was poking a boy on the head on the other side of the shelter. The boy went into the shelter, picked Liam up by his jumper, pushed him up to the wall and started to smash Liam’s face in. The girls tried to pull the child off Liam but with no luck. Thank god the PE teacher (a male) came to help save Liam. he moved the boy off Liam..but by then liam was on the floor screaming. oh and if you want to know what his teacher was doing. PLAYING CRICKET WITH THE OTHER CHILDREN AND NOT WATCHING THE FIGHT. she did go up to Liam after 10mins later but it looked like she was getting Liam to apologize to the boy who just went for his face. After PE I went up to the teacher and said that I saw everything (I was in shock and holding in my tears). she said well Liam was poking the boy and that he had been a wet sponge all day. soon as she said that I saw fire in my eyes and shouted LOOK AT HIS FACE ITS BLACK AND BLUE but she said oh that’s because he been crying all day. Liam was next to his teacher and looked so scared and shaken up…she even tried to ask Liam what had happened but he would not talk. I think she worked it out that I was pissed off because she wanted to get back to class very fast. When it was home time 2 girls came out with him because he was in a right mess. He came up to me and said I’m I in trouble and I said no.

The next day I rang up school and said that Liam will not be coming back to school until the 3rd June after what I saw yesterday and also it didn’t help that liam did not want to come back. The headteacher said she is doing a report and that the child who did this will not be in until the 3rd. So this means the child who did this gets two weeks of holiday and i’m dealing with a child who has anxiety and lost his confidence. So i told the head that i was gonna deregister him on the 3rd. well soon as I said that she went on about how they were going to sort out Liam’s feet, speech and going to ring up other people. There was also a chat about how Liam has been for the past months (what they should have told me right away) I also was told I was going to get a phone call back at the end of the day BUT NOPE NOTHING ALL WEEK.

since being home schooled me and my mother have learned Liam can read but can’t write the alphabet, can’t spell , can’t write numbers and didn’t even know how to count on his fingers..

We are working on it but soon as he works that he be getting on track. I have notice a big change and its so lovely to see him smile again.

update from last blog

well i have had a busy morning.

i woke up and get liam ready for school and when i had sometime to myself to get dressed and sorted i looked at my very.com account to see that very.com have NOT put my credit back in. i rang them up right away seeing that they said it be in yesterday. now there saying that there now putting the money into my bank but there is something wrong with my bank so there so gonna email my bank a code. i said there is nothing wrong with my bank and i have never had probs with money going to back into my bank and on top of that should they be sending me a cheque.

because of this i went to town to see if the bank can help me and even they said there is nothing saying anything is getting refunded into my bank. after along chat with the bank we have classified it as stolen and there gonna try their best to get my money back and if there is any movement saying its going back there gonna ring me.

 

arrr how to piss me off

not a happy lass..just logged onto my very.com account where i have been saving up all my credit to buy a new tv what was post to come on a wednesday next week. logged onto my account to find out its be declined so i rang them up asking what the hell is going on because it been payed by my credit and the guy said he was sorry but they over ordered and i will get a tv soon as they get more (but don’t know when so no use to me)…so i asked for my credit back so i can go buy a different tv but same size and after a good yelling fight down the phone because he just kept saying just wait for your order miss price,  i now get my credit back on tuesday early morning…why have it up for sale if you bloody ran out…

update – i got my money back on thursday 😀 

life right now

i think people might of notice that i have not been blogging alot lately and that i have been keeping to myself. well alot of stuff has been going on in my life that sadly i can’t say online or i could get into alot of crap,

but i can say that since this crap has happened i have been having probs with my anxiety and been feeling low again. i have notice that…

  1. i have been eating alot of junk and i know this sounds silly but i try to stop but i can’t.
  2. i’m emotional and one min i’m happy as pie but next i’m crying and sad but i don’t understand why.
  3. i’ve been having nightmares and because of this i’m having about 4 to 5hour of sleep.
  4. i’m started to block people away from me because i feel like everyone is talking crap about me. i’m only talking to family and boyfriend.
  5. i only leave my home when i need to BUT i am going out around town at some point because my fella thinks it be good for me to see friends.
  6. everytime i go outside anywhere i feel like i’m gonna walk into people i really don’t want to see (reason why i like being at home).
  7. sometimes i get very stressed till a point i’m making myself ill with worry and stress.

right now i just want to sort myself out and don’t worry i will be blogging again.

the NHS is a bloody joke

i have been feeling low for about 3weeks and today i thought ok i’m gonna go see a doctor and see if they can help me out. i went in to book and nope no-one can see me. when i was walking out the building someone asked me if i was ok and sadly i had to hold my tears and say i’m fine.

i can’t say what is going on in my life right now but i feel like i’m gonna go bang.

not cool

don’t you just hate it when someone rings you the day before and says hey i’m popping up at 4pm tomorrow and you say ok. i spent this morning making the house look good and telling liam to not walk and eat.

Its now 4;36pm and no one has showed up..arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr