why is it when you try very hard at stuff but there is always gonna be people who tell you your failing. i’m doing something on my own and also some of this stuff is new to me and trying very hard but starting to feel like a fail.
that was my night tonight.
wtf just happened (O_O).
i was walking home from school with my son and a other girl from his school when a woman started to swear at me saying that i pushed her son into the road on Helme Lane. i have to admit that i was not looking in front of me when walking because the girl who was walking with us was talking but i did say sorry. well the woman didn’t take my sorry and started to swear in front of me, my son, the girl and her children. she started to say she was gonna smash my face in so i turned around and walked away but she was still swearing and saying to watch myself or i will get my face smashed in…. when we walked off the girl was abit worried and also liam but like i said them do not worry about it because if someone acts like that it just shows what kind of person she is….
but have to admit it did worry me when she said she was gonna smash my face in next to my son and other children.
its 1:05am and i’m awake with my head full of stuff what sadly i can’t say on the blog. maybe later i might do a blog about it but right now nope.
this week i had a meeting with liam’s school. he’s doing ok in class but still needs help. the hurting people has not stopped and no-one knows why he does it. my biggest worry right now is how liam can’t walk properly and i found out he failed a test at school about that but the scary thing i’ve been told is if the doctors don’t sort it out now he could end up having surgery when older on his feet. right now there trying to teach him how to sit up and other stuff to help him with his back. school psychologist are coming out to see him so lets see what they say about liam.
well today was my last day working for that company for 10 years as a cleaner. i didn’t get any flowers like most people get or even a card saying good luck.
i start the new job on Monday early morning what is gonna be a killer and i’m still gonna be working in the same building as my old job but under a cleaning company. still don’t no how to clock in so been told to just write the time i came in and i still don’t have the new gear (post to get it on the day hmmm odd).
i think i’ve done a blog like this in the past but i can’t remember but i’m really thinking about deleting facebook for good. last night i was trying to take off nearly all the photos of me and family and put them onto my laptop but clicked on that i badly need a memory stick (got to wait till friday).
in the past it used to be a site i would look forward to going on and talking to people but sadly nearly everyone i used to be friends with turned out to be plebs or just stopped talking to me or drama. every time i log onto it now it’s only to play games and family sending me messages or all the old people who have seen me grow up want to see photos of liam.
i deleted fb off my phone 2weeks ago because i got so sick to death of turning my internet on and messages just popping up what where just stressing and upsetting me. when i log onto the site by my laptop i still get that feeling of OH PLEASE NO CRAP TODAY. also its the only site i know when you block someone it start’s a keys unblock that person war and then i have to unblock that person and see there site what i do not want to see because it upsets me.
i might try and have a week away from it starting next week and then delete it so it gives me time to get all the photos and give people a heads up whats gonna happen. i no some people are gonna be peed but i feel like this will make me feel better if i do it.
i keep having nightmares nearly every night.
last night i woke up with a jump all because i had a dream i left liam home and i went to town and when i came home the windows where open and liam was cleaning (O_O). other night i had a dream some crazy person was going around town with a gun.
i kind of want the dreams to stop…. i’m i having crazy dreams because of my stress probs?
well i have been to see a doctor and found out that i’m stressed to the bone but like i said well hell yer not alot of people can say they found out there ex was cheating , son has crazy probs at school to a point i’m in meetings, gonna be working for a new cleaning company and know nothing about them ,dog got put to sleep because he was ill and it had to be me who had to be there when it happened because family was on holiday 😦 , i was with someone and thought everything was good until it was over , friend fall outs, then clicked on something is not right with something (can’t say online). hmmm have i not said that this is my 2016 (>_<).
been told i need to start relaxing but HOW DO YOU DO THAT (O_O). something is always bloody going on in my life.
2016 has been a crap year for me but also it has made me realize how lucky i am to have a son who thinks the universe of me.