Why me

Why do I keep having crazy nightmare’s. It’s nearly 3am and I’ve just woken up feeling very hot and scared. I had a dream someone rang up my phone but I didn’t pick up so they left a voicemail…it said I’m coming to get you and that my door was left open. I woke up feeling like I was about to poop myself. I went to see if Liam is OK and he’s in a deep (cat can’t even bug him).



today has felt very long but i have been up since 4am.

liam is on his school holidays and the only thing he wants to do is stay at home but i’m gonna try and get him to go on a walk (if its not peeing it down).


monday :O

  1. up at 3am thanks to my cat bitch slapping my face all because it wanted food.
  2. had to be at work for 4am-4:30am because i was the only cleaner in until the afternoon.
  3. liam school not open till 10am meaning i could not go home and sleep.
  4. he played up going to school.
  5. got home and did some cleaning.
  6. the gas guy came round at 2:30pm when i was about to go pick my son up.
  7. when he came in my cat got scared and ran out the door :O .
  8. took 20mins to find her but she ran right back in and hid in my room.
  9. picked liam up from school and found out he has been a pain in the butt all day.
  10. liam had to see a doctor at 3:50pm but hes got some lumpy dry skin on his face but everything ok.

and its only monday,

sick house

what a bloody week it has been. in my last post you can read that i was not well. LIAM GOT IT. he came home from school on monday not feeling to good and boom. poor guy has been on and off all week.



whoop just guess who had been unwell since thursday. for once it is not liam but me. got that lovely bug what has been going round what makes you cough , full of cold, dizzy and sleepy. on top of this i have been going to work feeling like crap lol. remember when i said i can’t bloody sleep hmmm well i have been going to bed at 9pm and waking at 7am and still feeling like poop lol.

hello blog

its late and i need to go to sleep but my mind is saying hell no. i’m getting so sick of feeling like this and i need it to stop. last night i had to make myself sleep and i must of dropped off at 10pm but woke up at 1am and went to sleep at 3am.

also today i got a text from the NHS saying liam has a appointment tomorrow at 10:30am but it was the first time i have been told about it so i’m gonna have to ring them tomorrow and rebook it or i will have school on my butt because i have not told them but how i’m i post to tell them if i didn’t even sodding knew lol.